Blog Challenge – Day 2

Describe 3 legitimate fears that you have and explain how they became fears.

This is not in any particular order.

I am afraid of clowns.  As a fact, I am afraid of anything in a costume with a mask, but clowns freak me out the most, and not really the really scary clowns, I find the red nose, red hair, white face, big mouth, circus clowns the most distressing.

I’m not sure where this fear came from, when I went to amusement parks anything dressed up always freaked me out, I don’t recall anything really bad happening, but they just make me very nervous.

I am afraid of butterflies and moths, first they are ugly, and second they fly all over the place, all willy nilly like, and as far as I’m concerned they fly blind and can’t see where they are going and, eww, I’m disgusted as I type, they scare me, and I don’t like them.  Period.

I am mostly afraid of losing my kids, I was afraid of SIDS before Jeffery passed away, but since he passed away, it was more so.  My kids can sleep through anything, you ask the reason why?  Because every night when I check on them before I go to sleep, I put my hand on them, sometimes rouse them a little, sometimes just have my hand over their faces to feel their breath, you get the idea.  They sleep through anything because they are used to being physically checked on while they sleep.  I need to be absolutely sure they are breathing before I go to sleep or I can’t sleep.

Day number 2, done!

Jenn

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4 thoughts on “Blog Challenge – Day 2

  1. I absolutely relate to you about your worries of losing your children. I do not have children of my own (and don’t plan on having any), but I have three nephews, and two nieces that I took care of for about 8 hours a day or longer till they were over the ages of seven! I still go every weekend to teach the girls the piano lessons. So, even though I’m not a mommy, I feel like one. I worry all the time that something will happen to them, and then I have to take a deep breath and remind myself to enjoy what I have right now with them. Make them laugh, tickle them, play silly games and above all make sure they know how to have the strength to believe in themselves no matter what happens.At the end of the day worrying about what is going to happen has not gotten me anywhere besides creating more fear. I spend all the time I can with them, love them and think positive thoughts that they will each live full and prosperous lives. I hope I didn’t bore you! Haha

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    1. Hi Sarah, yes it’s true, there is a fine balance with living and fearing the worst. I try to ensure that they don’t know about my worries, and we have full lives, but it’s always there, sometimes I stop myself from thinking it happened once, it could happen again.

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      1. I know, and I cannot even imagine the pain. Again I’m so sorry for your loss. You are a very very strong woman. You are being a great example to your children for continuing on.

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